Well it has been long since i updated this so just to entertain those who actually bothers to read this dead blog... Heres something i hope those who are like me will do. Forget the past, Think about the future. Dont just let 1 mistake or 1 failure act pull you down. Think positive... But according to prof. ATHB, he says that think negative so as when the negative comes, you already knew it is coming. So this is something which i feel that i can share with those 'fans' of mine.

Lastly, i believe you would want me to get on with life as much as i hope you could right? Well hope you doing fine now... Dont need to worry about me too much. I have also found someone who could just fill that hole which was left untouched. I hope she can help me and give me a chance. Well wish me good luck than... Thats all for today.

Going to sleep liao... Nitez 'fanz'

I don't know wat got into me but i just wasn't myself yesterday night... I began to say stuff which did not even go pass my f***ing brain. Now i am so regretful... I shouldn't have said those words... Shouldn't have made the situation worst for you instead should be comforting you... I am so f*** up with myself now that i just couldn't believe i said those stuff and because i did... I will not forgive meself... I WILL NEVER FORGIVE MESELF... You trusted me so much and turn to me when you are down but wat did i do? I made it worst... I f***ing scolded you for wat you did not do... I... I... I don't wat i can say about myself... I'm a basturd... A f***ing basturd... A bastard who goes around hurting many with words which did not pass through my brain. Now i only hope for your forgiveness... But even if you do forgive me... i will NOT forgive myself... I hope that we are still friend and you can trust me like before... I promise with my life that such thing will not happen again... I promise i will not allow you to get hurt again... The reason why i wasn't myself was probably because i heard you were hurt... And that made me feel mad, unease... Now i really hope you can forgive me... And I PROMISE... IT WILL NEVER EVER HAPPEN AGAIN...

I didn't know that the price i had to pay was so great
If i knew it would happen this way
I would rather i did not exist
Cause if there is not Anthony Tan in the world
Your world would be much rounder
Much lovelier and of course less of pain
If my existance brought you unhappiness
I might as well disappear once and for all
For that in exchange for your happiness
Its worth...

2) Magic