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My memories are coming back to me.
I miss the days where we were so close and friendly.
I miss the days where we had so much fun.
Most important of all, i missed you.
But all these,
Are just my precious memories flooding back to me
Which will stay in my mind.
As those beautiful moments that we had.
Hoping that you will not forget about me. I will never forget
These precious memories...
PRECIOUS MEMORIES
Friday, December 24, 2010
Caroling was fun! It's definitely a great experience! Though it's my 1st time caroling and I made many mistakes, singing in a choir with people older than me was really enjoyable! Haha... Yup... I'm in an external choir called The Graduate Singers (TGS)... It's an affiliated choir from NUS choir so people there are naturally older... At 1st I thought it would be stressful but I turned out that the people are crazy and fun people too! Singing with them definitely helped me to improve in my singing and also help me build up more confidence... Just that I feel odd when they say that TGS are graduate singers from the NUS... Haha... Anw... Caroling again tmr... Bet it's gonna be as fun!
Well today is Christmas... Just wanna wish people readin this blog a very merry Christmas and a happy new year (though I know I'm the only idiot who blogs and read this)...
Oh yea... Urm...
I apologize for the harassment...
As I've said...
I promise that I won't bring up the topic anymore...
I'm a man of my words...
If you wan me to go to the extreme also can...
I can disappear from your life...
Just let me know if you wan me to...
Finally... Wish you would stay happy and cheerful!
Cheers and bye...
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Monday, December 20, 2010
Countdown: 95hrs to christmas
(and to that)
Well... I think the answer is obvious...
But just take this last 95hrs to reconsider...
If you wont change your mind, i wont force you...
Sorry for all the harassment...
Maybe i just dont know you well...
Just give me your final say on that day...
And i promise, swear if i must, that i wont bring this topic up ever again...
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Saturday, December 18, 2010
FAILURE!!!!!
I M A FAILURE!!!!!
Nothing i've done is perfect...
Nothing i've done has gone right...
Nothing i've plan worked...
Everything in my life is screwed!
Even the simplest thing...
Simple things like managing my own life...
I FREAKING MESS UP!!!
I LEFT YOU ALONE... THAT WAS MY BIG MISTAKE...
NOW MY WORLD IS UPSIDE-DOWN...
So wat if im a perfectionist?
Nothing that i do is near perfect...
Its like almost to the point of being imperfect!
That's me...
A COMPLETE FAILURE...
Sorry... Very disappointed with myself...
That's all...
Will you be there when i needed you most?
Cos i need you now...
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Thursday, December 16, 2010
Sorry for being MIA fo so long... Had many things to do... Had to juggle work, choir and personal stuff all at once... Anyway... This month I'll be caroling for Christmas at raffles republic plaza on the 24 and 25... But I've not learn all the songs yet... Do you think I can pull through? Many things happened this few days... And I could tell many things happened for you too... I would love to know more bout it... But I don't think I can for now... You'll wait for me right? You better... XD
Anw... Taking off from 20-25 dec... Anyone free to hangout drop a hint and I'll try to plan it... Haha... Wanted to do many things this month but much have not been accomplished.. Haiz...
Days may pass
And you may not hear from me
But always rmb that
Each day and nite
Clear or cloudy
You would always be on my mind...
It's time like this when I think of you
And wonder if you'd ever think of me...
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Wednesday, December 8, 2010
爱上你 不需要理由 你到底懂不懂
可是
怀念 竟比失去 还要更难受
噢爱让我 想起你的时候 泪禁不住滑落
可惜 你永远 都不会懂
-爱上你 by2
是的。
想念和怀念是比失去还难受。
但没其他选着。。。
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Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Man I suck!
Am I too much?
Am i very self-centered?
Do you feel that I'm not considering your feeling?
Do you think I'm selfish?
But I just...
It's still a wish...
Hope to have a reply by Christmas...
Can you think it through?
Just ignore those things that you think you're lacking...
Not everyone is perfect...
Not even a perfectionist...
Have more confidence...
And I'm looking forward to 25th Dec...
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Sunday, December 5, 2010
If it's wat i wan, i'm more than willing to invest all the time i can spare...
Its just lacking that 1 thing from you...
Give me a chance and we'll see if its false hope or not...
Unless i have no place in your heart... Nowhere to be found in there...
Strangers or not... Its definitely not...
I wont let that happen!
Let's give it a try... Come on...
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Saturday, December 4, 2010
Hmm... Suddenly i dont think im the cut for being a choralist... Its like after so long of not singing, trying to sing using technique and listen to my own voice while in a choir seems difficult...
Actually i felt quite lost now... Everything that i wan to do, i cant do it... That's just no motivation... There's no you... I think you're that motivation that im lacking...
Its like i wanted to sing well and i cant... I wanted to practice coin sleights and become a coinster but i cant... I wanted to join TGS for choraling but i dont think i can... I wanted to have a stage routine but i cant... I wanted to end everyday with a neutral feeling but i cant too...
I feel hopeless...
Its not false hope...
Even if it is, its something that i wanted...
At least give me some hope...
Just give me a chance and i'll prove it to you...
I know that there are many things that i dont know about you...
But im really willing to spend time understandering you...
Nobody's perfect in this world...
We are called human cos we have some imperfection...
But there are also people who sees the imperfection in others as 'i m perfect'...
We can change and compromise...
The question is 'is there the chance to?'
Unless im not someone who's up to your standard...
If so... Let me know wat im lacking and i'll change...
Serious...
P.S.: Wat do you hate? Me? Oo?
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Friday, December 3, 2010
Nothing much to say today... Just really curious on who you are refering to... Really hope my christmas wish can come true...
I guess i think too much...
But that doesn't change my feelings for you...
I dont know why...
But i just dont have the courage to ask you...
Im not as good as i seems...
I only dare to ask one thing from you...
Would you give me a chance?
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Thursday, December 2, 2010
Back to blogging...
(Astatine-me, Radium-you) [Check periodic table and you'll get it]
Today was rather tiring... Supposed to wake up by 8am (actually i did but i laze in bed till 9am)... Met junji at 10 plus (supposingly 9.30) cos i delayed too much... Well i wasn't well known for being late for nothing... XD
Yea... Than went off for my 3rd part-time job... Im actually quite surprise at myself... Im currently holding 3 jobs; packer @ Pantos Log, Service Asst @ Isetan and Flyer distributor... Lol! But i still like the Isetan job the most! Haha...
Anyway... Distributed flyers door-to-door today from 11am to around 4pm... Got scared by 3 freaking dogs (1 lagger though)... The lagger dog was called lagger cos when i approach the door, it did not do anything... After i walk away for about 2 meters, it started barking like no business... Dotzttm...
Anyway... After our job rushed home and changed... Rushed to Bishan for movie with junji and gang... Watched 'Hello Stranger'... Although i dont understand the language (the subtitles really helped), i quite enjoyed the movie... Quite touching... I actually saw some part of my life showing up in the movie itself... You (yes you) should go catch it when possible... Hehe
Well thats all for now... Got work tmr... Bye~
Urm... Im not sure if im thinking too much...
But is the msg on your blog directed to me?
If so... Let me tell you this from the bottom of my heart (I apologise if its harsh)...
Well... Whether its worthy or not isn't really for you to say...
My decision was made due to feelings and not whether its worthy or not...
I know we've only met at most thrice and only talk twice...
But if you could give me the chance, i wanna get to know you better...
Im willing to spend most of my time understanding you...
All you have to do is to give me a chance and be more optimistic about yourself...
Radium
(code)
... Pls think thru it... If you have the answer pls let me know via sms... Thx
P.S: For code name... Refer to the hidden words after the 1st line
P.P.S: Who's oxidising agent (Abit nosy here XD)
P.P.P.S: Hang out some day leh... Catch a movie than go see sunset?
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MEMORIES OF HISTORY
June 2008
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November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
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April 2009
May 2009
July 2009
December 2009
January 2010
March 2010
May 2010
August 2010
November 2010
December 2010
January 2011
ABOUT MYSELF:
Hi. I am Anthony Tan. I have been living in a world full of memories. Without memories, i think that i may not be that kind of person of what i am now. Sometimes as i get lonely and helpless, i would enter the memory world of mine and reflect on certain things.
STUDENT OF:
Townsville Primary School (2001-2006)
Montfort Secondary School (2007-2010)
Hobbies:
1) Sing
2) Magic
3) Spend time alone
4) Slack
5) Play badminton
6) Clear adventure RPG games
CCAs:
Badminton (2003-2006)
Badminton School Team Player (2005-2006)
Choir (2007-2010)
Choir Student Conductor (2008-2009)
Choir Vice President (2009-2010)
Prefect (2002-2004)
Student Councilor (2005-2010) & Ex-co (2008-2010)
FRIENDS
Andy
Anthony (Listen to Songs)
Atiqah
Brenda
Choir
Chong En
Daren
Eugene Quek
Felicia
Han Inn (Brother)
Hui Boon
Jade
Jamey
Jeremy Ong
Jia Yee
Keane
Kit Yee
Kristina
Pamela
Masuri
Roy
Tiggatiggers
Tristan
Xian Da
Xin Yi
Xing Xia
Xue Ting
Yu Ting
EXPRESS YOURSELF HERE