Wa... Got hell lot of things to do man. 2 days later still got choir camp. Than things haven pack yet. Die liao la... Haiz...

Think that this choir camp going to be very 失败. Reason? Easy... Because i am part of the organizing committee. I Game I/C some more leh... I think they going to have a very boring time loh... Haiz...

This few days you have been very cold to me... Did i do anything wrong or have i made you angry? Please tell me something... Don't so cold towards me can... Actually, i found out that 'Sorry' has been my favorite now. Ummm... I don't know why. But i have this feeling that i am very very useless. I can't even make you happy. I can't even do the simplest thing; which is to cheer you up. I will keep on trying... As long as you would give me the chance to... I really hope that we could be like before. I really hope you could be as cheerful as before... I promise i cheer you up... Even if its the last thing i would do......

I never really knew you
You were just another friend
But when I got to know you,
I let my heart unbend.
I couldn't help past memories
that would only make me cry
I had to forget my first love
and give love another try
So I've fallen in love with you
and I'll never let you go
I love you more than anyone
I just had to let you know
And if you ever wonder why
I don't know what I'll say
But I'll never stop loving you
each and every day
My feelings for you will never change
Just know my feelings are true
Just remember one thing
I Love You!

Why must it be like this? Why must you leave me? Why did you made my fears and nightmares come true? Why, why why?

You were my everything;
Now you’re gone.
I don’t have the strength
To carry on.

Skies always seemed sunny
When you were here;
Now there’s nothing but gloom
In my atmosphere.

I loved you so much;
You were all I had;
Now my whole world
Is depressing and sad.

I’d like to start feeling
Other than blue,
But you were my everything,
What can I do?

As long as I still have a chance, i won't never, NEVER give up.

Well could not blog much today... And will not for the next few days. Cos I'm just too tired. I'm emotionally tired and that I don't know how long more can I hold on anymore.

Ummm... This is the time where this phrase 'What was, was. What is, is. But what will be, may not be.' And I totally agree so. What happened, had already happened (I'm sorry). What is happening, is happening (I'm grateful but still I'm sorry). What will happen, ummm... I WILL make a difference (Hopefully its the best thing to do). Now I notice... It is just so hard to make you happy. But I will still try... Although it seems like my efforts will be reduce to zero. But its worth the effort. Maybe its what people always says, "Let nature takes it's course." If you are not happy or find me irritating, than just let me know. I would avoid contacting you unnecessarily and not irritate you anymore.

Hmmm... Ummm... Well I think that's all I can say. Until i return to normal, STAY HAPPY. That is all I request of you.

Well its has been 3 days... This 3 days can be said to be my happiest and most memorable memories in my 14 years of life. With her by my side, I believe that anything will be possible. 至少我没有白费这四到五年来等待着她的时间。But there's something which worries me a lot; how long can we be together? I know this is what people call 一相情愿... But I really hope this relationship could survive longer than any of us could ever imagine. Do you know that when you called me 'dear' for the 1st time, I was jumping around like monkey? I was like "Wow... Finally you have accepted me." But when you asked me the difference between liking someone and loving someone, I was totally stuck. I could not give you the answer that time, but i found the meaning on net; Liking someone means that you are attracted to him/her for whatever he/she have done, be it good or bad. Loving someone means to have a profoundly tender and a passionate affection for another person. That is what the dictionary says. But in my dictionary, Like is to have an attraction or affection for someone while Love is to like somebody despite his/her bad points and make sacrifice and take risk for him/her just to see and make him/her happy. True Love is to make someone you love happy.

I dare say I both Like and Love you. But I also know that love does not hope for a return. There's a saying goes: 'It is more blessed to be love than to love.' That's what I want you to feel; Blessed. That is also the reason why I don't mind you not loving me.

Well there is more troubles coming which I hope we can face it together and not escape reality. I really really hope that time would freeze at this very minute, but I know it's impossible. But I still hope we would stay in this manner for as long as ever.

2) Magic