OK ... First up is to say sorry for not blogging for so long. Secondly, to inform those that is very eager to read my new post, i will not blog for the next few months. Don't ask me why. Thirdly, for the pass few events, i will blog whenever i have time but for now, let me tell you a tragedy that happened to me and my surroundings. Everything just happens and i don't even have time to react to things that concern or may not concern me. Actually a lot of stuff happened.
Secondly, something happened to me and my junior/friend Chong En. We were like having a chat. The convo was :
Chong En: I starting to hate u sia !!!
anthony: really?
Chong En: last time de u better
Chong En: pamela also think so
Chong En: to be honest
Chong En: we can say u r getting prouder
anthony: can say that...
Chong En: more like "high class"
anthony: i dont know wat happen also
anthony: hoping that my life will come to an end
anthony: i am very tired liao
anthony: feel like sleeping for eternity
Chong En: u think me and pamela like that very easy izzit
Chong En: trying to be sociable to tok to u
Chong En: then like everytime mmmm
Chong En: aaaa
Chong En: ooo
anthony: mmmm aaa ooo???
Chong En: haizz !!
Chong En: ur reply
Chong En: then is like
anthony: Oo
Chong En: we feel that u like keep toking to so call high rank ppl
Chong En: then
Chong En: neglect ur old friend
Chong En: hai
Chong En: finally say out liao !!
anthony: did i...
Chong En: thats y is like
Chong En: i trying to avoid u
Chong En: but is like
Chong En: in the end still tk la
Chong En: tok *
anthony: lol
Chong En: haiz
anthony: ok i try to find my mistake..
anthony: sorry arh
Chong En: lol
Chong En: is no mistake
Chong En: is about ur attitude
Chong En: mayb we r not compatable as friend ba
anthony: that is part of a mistake...
anthony: cause i distracted
Chong En: ..
anthony: reason cont tell you
Chong En: lets try to avoid each other ok ?
anthony: how can?
Chong En: i delete ur contact le
anthony: wa like that la
anthony: i will try to change ba...
After that, he sent me smses saying:
Chong En: Now is like not your fault so i have already delete your contact le so this will be the last message plus msn please stay happy.
Anthony: Well i will try to change... And settle my stuff 1st cause this few days too many things happened... Will go back to being your old friend when everything is ok... Hoping that at that time you will still be able to take me as a friend... Stay happy...
Chong En: This will be the last message from me to you and i wont bug you le and please dun reply.
I was super sad after his sms and i just feel like breaking down. Just break down and don't care about things liao. Can just end my life but than again, i have a lot of things to attend to. Things like getting our relationship back, settle family problems( sometimes serious sometime not ) and my everyday life( school ). Don't wish to talk about it anymore... Just hope that Chong En will be happy for the time being. Although being a buddist, i just pray for him. Dear god, please protect my friend, Chong En, from all harms and evils. Keep him happy and may his life be happier without me. With all my hearts i pray...
Lastly, about my school. Things get quite bad in school. As i am put to meet my limit as a councilor and a student, i feel that i have too much pressure. That pressure is nothing. What made it worst was the demoralizing words that came out from my friends. Some was so bad that i could just like jump down the building. The reason why i don't want to talk back because i don't want to make the matter worst. I would rather i suffer than people around suffer. The rest of the matters that happened in school i shall keep it to myself for the time being.
Those friends out there which have read this post and wish to confront me, i suggest you give up. And those people who wants to continue to be friends of mine heed my words... Don't talk about this in school... Outside will be ok but not in school. If i hear anything of such in school, i will seriously break several ties with that person. I very serious about this. And if i don't feel like talking about it, please do not push me further... Thank you and may those who read this be happy...